about a month ago i was flying over denver.
if you haven't been to colorado, it is very mountainous.

but the beautiful thing about mountains are the hidden gems you find within the rocky peaks.

looking down from the plane there were lakes, and when i say lakes i mean hundreds of lakes throughout those mountains. 

this plain ride is where i was reminded of my aqua-a-holic syndrome.

now, the thing i miss most about my island in 

the sun is being in the water everyday.

in fact, i was in the water so much, i took it for granted.

but this isn't about me being home sick for my little island home.

 that's a whole thing in and of itself.

because i am currently obsessing over mountains and the hidden lakes and rivers that run through them.

i am fully aware of the fact that we would die without water, but what if all we had was water to drink, what if we could never submerge in water, and swim like mermaids through the currents.

being in utah for the past four months, working 50 hours a week, and being on bed rest for the past two weeks has left me with a lot of my summer being deprived of all the beautiful water in the world.

literally water is the best thing in the world.

the ocean, rivers, lakes, rain, waterfalls, snow, drinking water... i could go on forever.

and just think of all the things in life we would be deprived of without water...

swimming, skiing, surfing, wakeboarding, hiking to waterfalls,

kayaking, floating on our backs, scuba, snorkling, jumping off really high things into water, looking at the sunset of the ocean horizon, or the moonlight on the water, again I could continue.

people... sharks cove would be gone!

and i can't even get started about the luscious blues, greens, turquoise, uhhh its so wonderful.

i just wanna drink you in all day long.

so water,

you are the best thing on the earth. 

i love you.

swooning

somethings i need in my life.

I seriously may die if I don't get this perfect overall dress.

or this incredible work of art, of a swimsuit.

these aren't even optional here and here.

and how wonderful is this whole get up.

and do i need floral socks, just everyday of my life!

seeping summer

i hate sharing information about my life, for some reason it makes my skin thin and i feel extremely vulnerable ... this probably explains the vagueness of my blog.

but i learned something extremely valuable the past year i need to share.

i am not going to go into details but the girl with brunette hair, that dreams of traveling the world every two minutes was no longer there. it just took me a while to figure it out.


you could say i was numb to the world and people around me.


you may remember this post.
the year leading up to this post was amazing, i loved almost every second of it. but i just never realized how lost i was getting and how confused i was along the way.

then two months before that post it hit me how lost i had become. i laid in bed and cried myself to sleep almost every night, and i'm not a crier. (let me tell you the only time i had ever cried myself to sleep before was when Riley my beautiful dog died over two years ago)

Something wasn't right, i new i wasn't happy and i had become so lost in the maze of my life i didn't even remember what it was like to truly be myself. I forgot what hope, happiness, and laughter meant to me, i was lost in someone else's definition.

then one morning i woke up before the sun and i felt that that the air was different, than ever before. (sometimes you just know your panda express fortune cookie, that promise change, is about the come true.)

this summer has seeped 
into every crack of my soul.

i didn't realize how broken i was until i was free, until the cracks started to be filled.

and thank the heavens for the seeping because

i found myself. 

i found hope.  

and i am surrounded by more love than i thought possible.

i don't know what i did right but i am surrounded by amazing people. they leave me feeling real, raw, and boundless.

just like the people around you should.

every morning i wake up before the sun and know that the brunette girl is back. 

movies.

if you haven't seen The Way, Way Back you are seriously being 

deprived of all thats good in the world.

I will die if I don't get to see my boy Liam in Paranoia.

and hunger games round two.

who doesn't love Nelson Mandela

and okayyy... can we talk about this gem?

the three musketeers.

love you si and kris.
i need you in my life.

Portrait Gallery 

Washington DC

July 2013

ladies and gentlemen

i have a slight fettish with our nations capital, art,

and this museum.

put the three together and it doesn't get any better.

i spent three lovely hours at the portrait gallery this past saturday.

it's my happy place.

the outwin boochever portrait competition this year was literally life changing.

the handwritting exhibit will make you shed a tear.

and don't even get me started on the new martin luther king tribute. 

go go go, its the best.

summer reads are good

In Jess Walter's Beautiful Ruins, Alvis Bender says: A writer needs four things to achieve greatness... desire, disappointment, and the sea. Pasquale Tursi, responds: That's only three. Alvis then says: You have to do disappointment twice.