I realized this weekend I'm kinda anti social 

lets just say

big groups of people aren't really my scene.

for now..

I want to spend my Saturday nights 

at art museums, coffee shops 

and this house--preferably reading.

isn't it perfect?

love,

nich

to the moon and back.

I always run a little late on setting my new year resolutions

and to be honest every year without fail this happens..

can't quite figure it out..

last year they didn't get set till the beginning of march so improvement has been made.


i got some high expectation of myself
not sure if that a good thing so here we go..

I am going to laugh so much that my

 face is sore as many times as possible.

a couple weekends ago this happened to me

it was just about one of the greatest things

that has ever happened to me-- I want to 

experience this again and again.

I am going to go somewhere new.. somewhere

 I have never been before.

Why not right?

Don't gossip

easier said than done..but I'm determined

small people talk about other people

average people talk about things

and great people talk about ideas

I'm gonna shoot to be one of the greats

 Never neglect the beauty that surrounds

 me where ever I may be

I forget how perfect the world around me is

I am gonna breathe it in and
try to hold my breath.


Wear heels more often


As the Monte Carlo would say
if they ain't hurting they ain't helping.

I am going to read my little heart out

I have to read at least 12 books

including:

The China Study
The Hunger Games Series
The Book of Mormon
The Anatomy of Peace
Walden Life in the Woods 
more to come..

Jump off more things

such a scaredy cat

its gonna happen.

I am going to live within my means

No reason not to.


Open my heart to things it
hasn't been before


this just sound exciting.


Grow closer to the Lord.


Definite first priority 
nothing could sound better.


2012.
So excited.
xoxo,
neesh

fear is a lie.

Every year I get a terrible case of spring fever..

it came early this year.

what did i do today?

lets see..

went to class

went to work

took my first accounting test

 blair my bike had a seizure and completely broke down

had the most delightful conversations with Dad and Si

I laid on temple beach basking in the Hawaiian sun

I longboarded barefoot to chev with stac for melon slurpees

then to the temple and got blister battle wounds

sat on the tower admiring the beauty of the world

went on a tiny boat all the way to peanut island 

snorkeled in the clearest shark infested water I've ever seen

sat in that little boat all through golden hour

watched the sunset from the middle of the ocean

watched the rainbow sky of pastels fade from the horizon

met locals that fed me and Stac some type of sea slugs right out of the water

they now call us locals we graduated the haole name

 busted my butt with homework after returning from our 2 hour boat ride

got a terrible case of spring fever that I don't believe will ever go away

and now I am writing about this flawless day

listening to the beatles--it just got even better. 

xoxo,

neesh

salt water in my veins.

Sometimes i feel like i have salt water in my veins

not like a constant sting flowing through my body

but a part of the ocean that brings me peace;

 the ocean has always had the power to do this for me. 


it's like those days when you can feel the 
earth is round beneath your feet,
when you realize you are a speck in a 
speck of a tiny little speck,
but you still know you are important and how lucky
and blessed you are to be where you've arrived.

The other day I was standing on top of crouching lion this
is when I, once again,was reassured by
 the peaceful grace the ocean brings

the view down was one of the most
 peaceful things I've ever encountered.

In the center of kahana bay there was a ripple that continued
perfectly until it reached the shoreline.

Then for as far as I could see the horizon was steady,
the beauty was flawless and it was one of those moments
when I felt like salt water was raging through me 
as if it was becoming a part of me.


I'm not quite sure when this salt water made
 it's way into my veins
but there are days when I am almost sure it's there  
this probably started when I was a toddler 
running around moonlight beach eating donuts
and my mother distracting me from my chicken pocks 
as I built sand castles at ocean beach.
or
It could just be the fact that
 I live in one of the most beautiful places in the world
but time after time I am amazed at 
the beauty that the ocean brings
and just like that ripple effect into 
kahana bay and the peace it brings me
 the ocean has the power to make you feel that beneath your feet, the earth is round,
and realize the steady horizon and how it never ends.


try to feel the salt water run through your veins,
it's really good.


xoxo,
nich

the guava lie.

You should about all things be glad and young

For if you're young, whatever life you wear

it will become you; and if you are glad

whatever's living will yourself become.

-e.e cummings

we are endless.

its time and i can't wait.

It's time to get back to.. 
  the canal 

watching the sunrise before school

partner yoga every night

sand in my sheets

salt in my hair

sunburned skin

sand on my feet in the library

sunkissed blonde hair

being a mermaid 

wavestorming at castles

turtle bay being a verb

long talks 

super saturdays

laughing with the adventure house

picnics that need to occur more often

hiking the muddiest hikes

going on the longest adventures

the sound of temple beach from my bed

jumping off things

driving along the coast

getting pounded

acai bowls 
hawaiian rain storms

blair my cute bike

being surround by beauty

and another perfect semester.

can't wait.

xoxo,

nich

Do what you love. Know your own bone; gnaw at it, bury it, 
unearth it, and gnaw it still.

This ones for..

2011

People to thank 2011 for:

Thank you for Siera and her endless talks and laughs
Thank you for Kristen and her inspiring words and fashion
Thank you for Dane and his kick a attitude through everything he's been through
Thank you for Shell Bell and how she never fails to make me feel special
Thank you for Dad and the million phone calls I had with him
Thank you for Stacie Farr and the many times I almost died with her
Thank you for McKenzie Carlson and many dreams we share
Thank you for Kylie Racker and the motivation she gives me
Thank you for McCall Modersitzki and the laughter she brings
Thank you for McKenzie King and the things she taught me
Thank you for Allison Smilanich and the perspective she has
Thank you for Lauren Bergaust and her passion for life
Thank you for Craig Muirhead and the friendship I have with him
Thank you for Chase Beal, his jeans, and his cooking
Thank you for Sean Innes and the service he has provided for this country
Thank you for Blake Modersitzki pacing me for 13.1 miles
Thank you for Trudy and her life changing yoga classes
Thank you for Conner Parks and the passion he has for the gospel
Thank you for Christian Carlson and the shakas he throws
Thank you for Ryan Weed and his dirty jokes when they are most needed
Thank you for Skee and the surfing trips to castles and queens
Thank you for Gid and the self defense lessons and the coconut syrup
Thank you for Ted and the flour spread all over my room
Thank you for the Canal house girls-- Coral, Tay, Mckae, Paris, and Giselle

2011 Thank you for the memories you hold:

Thank you making me 19

Thank you for the adventures you brought

Thank you for Hawaii and the change it brought

Thank you for the two wonderful school year it has embraced

Thank you for the summer and the family time it included

Thank you for the red house, the tower and the 'pellow game'

Thank you for the Ocean and the waves it brings

Thank you for Kaena Point and the mud fight i will never forget

Thank you for Ko'olina and the wild dolphins I swam with there
Thank you for Waimea cause the sand fights and shore break

Thank you for Spring Term being the best six weeks of my life

Thank you for running giving me my highest high

Thank you for Tuacahn for the two best plays ever

Thank you for the Sun for never failing to shine

Thank you for Coco Cove and the love it brings

Thank you for partner Yoga and the indescribable pictures it provides

Thank you for Waikiki and the Human Hamster Balls it contains
Thank you for laughter and how it made my face sore

Thank you for Lani Kai and Moks for the best super Saturdays

Thank you for the Tid Pools and China Walls jumps

Thank you for Uncle Bobos your acai bowls truely are the best

Thank you for Kahuku farms for the smoothies and view

Thank you for Kahuku for the Lilikoi and off roading

Thank you for Halloween and the risky business and hippie time

Thank you for Keikis for being my own Hawaiian Disneyland

Thank you for Sacred Falls for the five times I've climbed it

Thank you for The lovely time spend with si and my family on there visits

Thank you for the biggest slip n' slide in the world

Thank you for the Ko'olina Marina and the opportunity to sneak onto the black pearl

Thank you for Castles and the double rainbow pouring rain and best day ever
Thank you for Pupukea giving me my first North Shore surf experience

Thank you Utah for the best three weeks with my family over Christmas
Thank you for the best new years I've had in years with my family
Thank you World for another year to come.

and last but not least

Thank you for giving me the best year yet.